this post is about the right to religion… input section in charter of rights and freedoms which state it.

love.

I was thinking the other day about destructive habits and why people do what they do. it is because they place less value on consequence to the habit they are doing or do they place the destructive habit as a value above their life itself.

so I was thinking about life as an equation. there must be a way to everything into an equation to see the interaction between emotion, logic and etc.

How does Love affect the stock market?

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This has always been a favourite of mine. I think it was after the scandal that I found a deeper appreciation for this song. It’s a reminder when you lose site of the things to wake up. I connect with this song because as humans we tend to hide our darkest sins. This sin that consumes us and yet makes us so human. Like Adam and Eve hiding from God, our sin is something we inherently hide from everyone.

Maybe its shame… It’s sad that this song will never be sung at church again.

…We all need a healer deep down inside.

This was my one of my wedding songs. Kind of like Tonight’s going to be a good night but much better.

I guess it’s still go go go for me. No rest for me. Pack for Camping. Pack for Move. Pack for Honeymoon.

Emailed C.

it’s like me going to the wedding of my first love. Oh wait…that did happen. hahaha

I’ve been rejected many times. I’ve been passed over many times. I’ve failed many times. Each time still affects you. It’s like a death by a thousand cuts. The good thing is that the body heals. However the end result is scar tissue. This scar tissue heals the wound that we have faced but we are marked by the experience.

Even with the scars do we continue to strive for things or do we quit knowing the pain and ugliness of the scars.

X-games shows a physical example of this. People literally break bones in their bodies, but continue to go at it harder.

This is a reminder to go at it even harder. Don’t let people take it away from you. fight.

I remember my friend telling me if you want to understand women then watch sex and the city. It was somewhat true. I noticed things that I never in a million years would have thought about. I digress. Did you ever watch the sex and the city episode where Miranda dates the catholic guy who showers after sex because he feels guilty.

Sometimes I feel like when we feel guilty or when the church makes you feel a certain way that we justify our actions through trivial things like the shower hoping to receive sanctification.

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Would you hide the “Good News” from those you love dearly if you believed it was real?

11 days to go. Finally I can be called Mister.

It feels like I have so much to do. My wife to be is awesome because she’s doing alot.

All I can do is cook for her and take care of everything else.

I’m glad it’s raining right now because I don’t want it to rain on my wedding. Actually I don’t care. I realized that good enough is sometimes better than perfect. It’s in the flaws that we have some real memories. speaking of memories. My family and I with E and C watched some old home videos. It was hilarious. I wish we had some of the other stuff which was “lost” in a previous episode.

Anyway it was fun to see pictures of exes. Ahhh yeah… I made a good choice

I woke up again to the realization of my own mortality. It was liberating.

… It’s really sad when I exit Union Station and enter the Path. I’ve never experienced such a quiet march of hundreds if not thousands of people walking to work. It’s mechanical and almost inhuman…The best song to counter that is Ant’s Marching…I have begun to feel that tension with church and myself. It’s funny how people who leave the church complain that they feel judged and then turn their back and judge in return…kind of made me mad, but that whole mortality thing reminded me that they’ll eventually die and so will I. Now must we waste our time on such petty things? If you feel judged then do something about it. I know that I can only be me. I don’t follow the rules because I don’t have to. sometimes.

God is real. How do I know? Answered prayer. I know it may sound like a self fulfilling prophesy, but who would want it to be more responsibility?

I no longer serve at church because I am no longer required too.

For the longest time I wanted to serve. I just stopped because…

Good Will Hunting

Will: What do I wanna way outta here for? I’m gonna live here the rest of my fuckin’ life. We’ll be neighbors, have little kids, take ‘em to Little League up at Foley Field.

Chuckie: Look, you’re my best friend, so don’t take this the wrong way but, in 20 years if you’re still livin’ here, comin’ over to my house, watchin’ the Patriots games, workin’ construction, I’ll fuckin’ kill ya. That’s not a threat, that’s a fact, I’ll fuckin’ kill ya.

Will: What the fuck you talkin’ about?

Chuckie: You got somethin’ none of us have…

Will: Oh, come on! What? Why is it always this? I mean, I fuckin’ owe it to myself to do this or that. What if I don’t want to?

Chuckie: No. No, no no no. Fuck you, you don’t owe it to yourself man, you owe it to me. Cuz tomorrow I’m gonna wake up and I’ll be 50, and I’ll still be doin’ this shit. And that’s all right. That’s fine. I mean, you’re sittin’ on a winnin’ lottery ticket. And you’re too much of a pussy to cash it in, and that’s bullshit. ‘Cause I’d do fuckin’ anything to have what you got. So would any of these fuckin’ guys. It’d be an insult to us if you’re still here in 20 years. Hangin’ around here is a fuckin’ waste of your time.

It’s one of those moments where I realized that “Hangin’ around here is a fuckin’ waste of your time.” So I consume myself in my new ministry. I continue to work my faith our in fear and trembling because at the end of the day we’ve only got a finite amount of time.

Amen

Really? People are mad at Rob Bell because he questions the status quo?

I realized that most the critics are pastors which makes sense because they are the intellectuals and experts on theology. I think where we get a bit consumes is that he is presenting an alternate point of view which I can relate to because life isn’t so black and white. Working has taught me that our faith in church is different in the world. You show through action your faith here.

I think Pastors need to work in the frontline to see what the world is really about.

Personally I feel Pastors should enter the workforce for three years before being Pastors to understand the fundamental issues of 1/3 of most people’s lives. How do you only talk about the other 1/3… (1/3 is for sleeping)

…raw edit.

OMG…I don’t think I’m up to date in the online world. I just went on plentyoffish.com and realized that online dating is almost accepted and kind of cool. I get so entertained seeing people I know on the site. It’s so mean but I kind of want to msg them and be like “I like boys do you like boys? I mean you’ve resorted to online dating. How do you know if you haven’t tried it?” People would get man.

I see the legitimacy of online dating as we have turned to the cyber world to meet our cyber partner and have cyber sex and hopefully one day the real thing.

I’m so glad I’m not in highschool now. I keep hearing about stories of cyber bullying and thinking wow I think I would do that. Why? Because I can and it’s fun. But I would cyber bully the hot girls because they think they’re so hot. Online they’re just 0’s and 1’s…

If you’re single go online. They is way more opportunity to score… choose the desperate ones cuz they’re more appreciative…

Ok this post is mean. I guess it’s the whole awe of seeing something new like the concept of online dating. LOVE